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Getting lost in my own city

I never knew that the trees, awnings, and canopied
Roofs on my walk to the “L” would keep me dry
Like a rain forest hidden in my city.

The Red-Line train filled with White Sox fans
Stopped at every stop, each one blowing off
Fireworks, loud enough to make me forget the rain.

Last night’s party in the suburbs had four of everything:
Foursomes of golfers with gray hair,
Four-year-old kids running in a dangerous circle,
Their tiny hands clutching lit sparklers
As pairs of two-year-old siblings cried.

Four rows of spinning pinwheels.
Four grills for ribs, chicken, hot dogs, and steaks.
Four rounds of fireworks with a thousand-dollar grand finale
Four young mothers, who brought their au pairs,
And a midnight countdown to the Fourth of July,
Which I had never seen before,
Despite all of my time with the privileged few.

Chicago got off easy this holiday weekend:
Only 9 dead and 52 wounded
Compared to last year’s 19 and 101.

That doesn’t count Highland Park, though,
The 4th of July parade, where a gunman
Climbed a ladder to a roof, took his rifle
And murdered Kevin and Irina shielding their child
And murdered Katherine whose ashes were scattered on a beach
And murdered Jacquelyn who loved her synagogue
And murdered Stephen who loved museums
And murdered Nicolas who was visiting from Mexico
And murdered Eduardo whose wife was shot and survived.

The parade route is still blocked with chairs,
Baby strollers, and blankets stained with blood.

The rain made its way to Indiana.
The White Sox hit into a triple play
And lost to the Twins in extra innings.

We could not find the right exit
From the expressway to Lake Shore Drive
And found ourselves alone in Canaryville.

Even the compass did not work.
The rain became a storm and then a flood.
My friend drove true north after midnight
Still lost. Still in our city. On the 5th of July.

What Lazarus Saw

For John II

Could anyone else spend four days
In Paradise and keep quiet about it?
Imagine Heaven as a Dolomite villa,
With a view of the snowy peaks,

A walk down the hills to the vineyards,
An evening with a beloved in a piazza,
Two am espresso and poetry in the only open café,
Asleep on a cloud like a tussled sheet and pillow,

But Heaven wasn’t ready for Lazarus:
Plain marble rooms for a deity;
Barracks for angels; bivouacs left by demons.
(The millennia of human memories — not yet unleashed

As icons by crusaders, martyrs, and your ordinary dead.)
Lazarus saw an empty Heaven waiting for its first Easter.
No one yet allowed to choose his next life, as swan or swami,
Leaving paradise behind like silenced footsteps and broken chains.

By day four, he was ready to come back.
The first person he saw was the Nazarene.
They stunk up the mausoleum, discarded the bandages,
Dined with his sisters, and frightened the Pharisees.

Dying once wasn’t enough for them.
They conspired like collaborators to an invasion
To identify and assassinate important Jews.
Lazarus became part of the diaspora.

Stories kept him alive
Long enough to find Cyprus and blend in.
It was hard to forsake instant celebrity,
And avoid the adoration of Arabs, Romans, and Greeks,

Condemned as a charlatan; compared to Iscariot hanged,
The only thing left for him, by the end, were his four days.
Each day longer than his second death bed.
Each day no longer on the tour.

Noah

Noah learned to swim by his first birthday.
Even hold his breath and float on his back.

When he turned ten, animals would walk
Right up to him – birds would perch –
Fish come to the surface.

His adolescence lasted a hundred years.
He took decades to learn carpentry,
Sew sails, master a sextant, cook for many.

Noah loves being a bachelor
In this violent, decadent time
Of mass shootings and wickedness.

So, he married late, had three sons
As an old man. Took on a great adventure
Before dying from natural causes.

It was baby Noah who gave everything away.
Precocious, joyful, ready to explain everything.
He measured his young life in arms-lengths,

And he saved us all from drowning
And kept us all alive to live family dramas

Until some super volcano wipes the prairies
Clean off the surface of the planet

With waves of hot ash – with hot ash
Making us nostalgic for storms and Noah’s flood.

80 Days With Angels

I found the evidence in Arizona.
Among the rocks, beneath the thorns,
Covered by flowering red bushes,
Your Connecticut driver’s license
Tossed out of a car, landing here:
Six foot one. 185 pounds. Brown eyes.
Black hair. Movie star looks.
Both mother and father.
Woman and Jehovah.

I never believed in Jehovah.
Before I came to the desert.
The valley fills itself with voices.
The sun stares through stained glass.
Red rocks leak energy around us.
I search for their name on my laptop.
No record. No source. Nothing is there.

Forty days of fasting just to get here.
I howl at the Pink Moon Saloon.
Coyotes and ravens like bouncers.
It’s my turn to turn my back to the city.
Refuse to turn stone into bread,
Or turn wind into angels.

Still, I would love to fall into their arms
Feel their fingertips save me.
But I guess I’m just not like you.
I’m here for another 40 days.
The only thing going back home
Turns out to be your lost driver’s license
Your name and address
Handwritten on an envelope

Return to sender, address unknown,
No such number. No such zone.
This is like looking for Elvis
In a room full of Elvises.
Yet I’ve never been more sure
That you are here.
You are as certain as an exploding sun,
As surprising as music on a SETI array,
As fresh as the scent of ginger
That explodes out of my handful of manna.
When you are as new as the deep sleep of an infant
With my fingers behind your head,
It’s time to come down from the mountain,
Head back to the bricks and snow up north,
Learn my lines for the second act;
Utter a word that has never been said.